Another miracle

Over the last couple of years, the "situation" has been a rollercoaster.  Except, not the fun kind (if you like that kind of thing.)  More like a rollercoaster through Hell.  

A few months ago, I was on the part of the rollercoaster ride that was taking me through an extra dark place.  I was a the park walking (Now that I think about it...  Miracles seem to happen when I'm walking.  I should walk more.)  I was trying to alleviate some of the pain in my chest.  The pain that happens when I'm feeling like there is no hope.

I just felt like my family was falling apart, and I didn't know how things were ever going to be okay.

I wasn't paying much attention to anything around me, so I didn't notice the ladies that were walking the opposite direction as me, coming toward me, until I got to them and one of them stepped directly in front of me.

I was a little surprised, and I was wearing AirPods so I stopped and took them out.  The lady held up her hands and apologized for stopping me.

"I'm really sorry for bothering you like this.  It's just that I had the very clear feeling that I needed to stop you and tell you that everything is going to be okay."

When I tell you that I was stunned, that is an understatement.  I didn't know what to say.  I think I said "thank you" but I might not have said anything.  What I do know is that my immediate thoughts were that it was weird.  However, the more I thought about it, the more I realized that I had a choice.  I could choose to believe that it was a crazy coincidence.  Or...  I could believe that God loves me.  He knows me.  He is aware of me.  He's got this, and somehow, I'll be okay.

The second option is what I chose to believe.

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