I'm done too

 I don't know why I'm wasting any more of my energy on this situation.  I guess that, whether I like it or not, this dumb situation had major effect on me.

Michael's girlfriend.  Technically he broke up with her and he left on his mission with the understanding that she was going to date other people.  She and I actually had a nice text conversation where I appreciated her apologizing for blaming me for things that she now realizes were not my fault.  We discussed wanting to be on the "same team" with Michael and trying to be a support to him while he serves a mission.  I specifically shared with her the rules that his mission president sent to me.  One was that Michael is only supposed to communicate with people on P-day and can only communicate via email.  No texting/messaging.  She fully agreed and expressed her desire to be a help to him, not a distraction.
Less than a week later...
I found out that Ellie had tried to get facebook messenger, specifically with the intention of texting Michael, and when her parents said "no", she used her friends account/phone to have a long intimate text conversation with him (on a non P-day) where she sent him real-time selfies of her and their friends all hanging out without him!
Maybe I shouldn't have, but it's just part of who I am to address things like that head-on and when I did...  Whoa.
It was obvious that Ellie was very defensive.  She tried to claim that she didn't know what she was doing was inappropriate or against the rules.  That might have been believable if she wasn't familiar with the church and its missionary program.  But that's not the case and when that didn't work, she tried to turn the blame on me and make me look like I was the one doing something wrong by being an unfair jerk
Anyway.  It was suddenly very obvious to me that she doesn't care about the kind of missionary Michael is.  All she cares about is appearances and that he can check off the "returned missionary" box on her list.  The conversation ended with her saying that she was "done" with me, but that since Michael is her friend she WILL continue to email him, but she'll follow "my" rules and not text him.  "My rules".  Ummm...  They aren't my rules.  They are the church's rules, but whatever.  Luckily, Michael has since expressed to me that he has zero desire to end up with Ellie, or anyone like Ellie.
Anyway.  She asked me not to contact her again.
Honestly.  I was relieved.  I would love nothing more than never having to talk to her again.  I told her that I'd be happy to stay out of her life as long as she stays out of mine.  She doesn't get to order me out of her life and business and then insert herself smack-dab in the middle of mine.

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